My Wall Part 2

Walls that are torn down often are built right back up. The constant up and down of life can build back and far surpass what you had originally built up to protect yourself.  When I had first planned on following up my original post on the subject of My Wall Part 1 it was to make the second portion more upbeat but forces beyond me have seen to it that that is not the case.
This summer has been stressful and many times my spirit nearly broke and may have actually snapped once or twice. I have been in a kind of self editing mode due to others inability to understand, be civil, be adult, and just be. Just Be! Just Be!! That is what I will do Just Be, and if others want to Just Be along with me that would make things that much better.

Blah, blah, blah, blah…the point you ask, well self editing has been turned off, the switch removed, the software disabled. The terrorist, they lost. I win. I am invincible. It feels so good to be so right and to have others know it for a fact as well.

Suckered you in I know…that little piece of awesomeness was free of charge. Summer has been stressful, but I could not be happier. I have spent every moment possible with my wife and kids. I have enjoyed what time we could spend with our extended family I’ll affectionately refer to here as the Goat family (although we need to spend more time with them). These are the ones who helped me tear down my walls, but none more than my wonderful wife. Every day with her and our children is certainly a gift and I try to never take that for granted.

So walls down, self editing off, summer good, and this fall will be better. In fact in just 71 days my best friends in the whole world will all converge in an arena in anticipation of see a 67 year old lyrical genius sing rock music. That’s right just 71 days from today Ryan, Shelley, Amy, Brian, Heather and I will all be enjoying the show. Roger Waters The Wall 2010. Atlanta we have you in our sights, and you will be rocked.

This fall is going to be awesome. Football. At least one weekend trip to a classified location(which is going to be Logan’s first car ride of more than an hour so fingers crossed). Halloween. Halloween shopping with The Goat’s. The Fair. Thanksgiving(wonder where this year invite early ( ; ) Christmas shopping (Daddy needs a new Surround Receiver and wants a new TV).

Can’t wait. Tomorrow I hit the ground running.

JUST BE!!!!

My Wall Part 1

I believe at one time or another we all build walls to block things out or keep things in, I know several times in my life I have done so. Maybe that’s why I have a always enjoyed listening to the lyrics Roger Waters wrote for the epic Pink Floyd album The Wall. It just resonates deep inside me. No I am not drugged out and going nuts, but emotionally at times in my life I have been numb. I have built a wall and someone did help me eventually tear down the wall.

The portions of The Wall that mean so much to me involve Pink’s childhood. Growing up without a father and with a single mother who loves him so much she dedicated all she had to making sure he was loved and cared for and had all the things his father would have wanted him to have. Yes also mother represented oppression which what mother doesn't rule her child at times with an iron fist. Several weeks ago my wife asked me why l liked The Wall so much. I don’t recall the answer I gave but I am sure it was not the whole story. I suppose these four lines of Another Brick in the Wall Part 1 sums it up.

A snap shot in the family album
Daddy what else did you leave for me?
Daddy what d'ya leave behind for me?
All in all it was just a brick in the wall

When I discovered a cassette tape of The Wall when I was nine years old I didn't understand the drug references, the sexual undertones, the psychosis of Pink. I did understand that pain from losing a father. From that moment on I was hooked. Now this Year we are going to see The Wall performed live by the man who wrote it. Roger Waters will perform the Wall in its entirety and we will be there. I hate crowds and have been to few concerts but this one I had to make happen. I cannot wait to experience it and see a Wall built and torn down before my own eyes. I am so happy that my wife, my best friends and my closest cousin are all going to be there with me. It will be one night I will never forget. Maybe it will help break down walls for others the way it did for me over the years. Everything in life can either be part of a wall or part of what you use to take down a wall. This is Part 1 of my own wall. Between now and November I will share Part 2 with you and after the concert Part 3.

Well I will l leave you with another line form one of the many movies like. This in fact is my favorite musical. Pink Floyd The Wall from 1982.

“Is there anybody out there?”